I'm Writing About Me Today

I hope you don't mind, but I would like to write a little about my own thoughts today. Although, basically all of my writing comes my very own nerve center, I still like to be a little transparent if I can. Like the character in the first part of the story, I think too much. Sitting here typing this up, I understand little of my own writing style and technique.

Sure, I could sit down and research. I could even take some time to read grammar/language arts textbooks, websites, etc. just to maybe, if any, improve on my own writing. I have these positive thoughts that I could write everyday. Improve by doing. Explore different themes in every blog. Understand my style of writing. Obviously, I would have to dedicate my time to this. Not only this, but a far greater majority than I have been. Do not get me wrong. I could do it.

Work and the non-profit group I help with are not really getting in the way in the slightest. If anything, it is my own understanding of relaxation and rewarding it to myself. When it comes to work and the non-profit group, I work hard and do everything I can to help with it when they do not conflict with each other anymore. That usually brings me to try to relax when I have free time.

My relaxation time has become more of a burden of waste. Some watch Netflix, movies,and tv shows. Some read. Some play video games. Some just sit and listen to music. I, myself, try to cram all of these things into my relaxation time. If anything is stressing me out, it might just be too much relaxation. Or in the best sense of what's wrong, the negative associations and types of relaxation that I indulge myself are what is stressing me out.

 I know I should not watch all these shows, movies, playing video games, and reading all these books at once. They are not always the healthiest of stress relievers. I would like to exercise more and get into that routine. I would like to write more, create videos, edit videos, etc. However, this pulls me out of my routine of trying to do my relaxation routine for the past few years. I need to break this old routine and start something fresh, new and exciting. It will pump me up and boost my mood tremendously. I know that much.

When I see that what I love to do is create, I think to myself why I am not doing that on every free minute that I have outside of the non-profit org and work. My mindset needs to get better. I might be giving up viewing some shows and movies. I might be giving up on some classic video game play.  I will continue to read and start to exercise for sure. But for the long run, I can only see something more positive and rewarding from myself writing more, even if it might be a little note everyday, or reading more within the craft. Plus, from this can come ideas that others might see and want to share with myself and others.

Maybe, I might even get noticed for my writing or at least my ideas. Then, the video creations could come as long as I have partners in crime that want to make funny, wacky, maybe dry or serious videos. I need more than friends, but a group of people who are interested in just collaborating and creating videos for the sake of creation and not strictly any financial or reputation gain. I know there are groups, but sometimes it seems like I could do more if I share these posts. These blogs with others. Sharing my interests, my thoughts, stories, ideas, and unlimited potential of imagination, I feel like that is how I need to start this journey.

I will not be displeased if this leads to me writing part time even. I would love to receive compensation, no matter how little (okay, not a penny per post), to continue something that I find joy and relaxation in doing. This might be a confessional. This could definitely be a way to have others that actually do read my posts to give me honest feedback on how I should write, where I should be posting or ideas of how to consistently stay on the positive side of this argument I have with myself everyday.

I want to write. I want to share. Let me know what your thoughts are on it and above all, share.